REAL Lifeline

When I was on dialysis,  I experienced a great deal of trials and tribulations.  I really did not have anyone to talk to about what I was experiencing emotionally.  My family was very supportive, but I did not want to wear them down anymore than they already were.  I knew they were worried as they saw me dealing with this disease everyday.  There were times I was depressed simply because I could not do the things I used to do.  Just doing regular chores around the house made me feel exhausted.  On dialysis days, you can forget about it.  I just stayed in bed afterwards. I was in too much pain to do anything anyway.  

With all the scars on my body from procedures, I did not even feel sexy to my boyfriend anymore.  Then, I would feel guilty because there were so many people experiencing a worse health crisis than I was.  I felt my self confidence wavering. I wish I had someone to open up to.  I would have loved a forum where I could get advice or encouragement from anyone who were experiencing or had experienced what I was going through.  

Now, since the kidney transplant, I have experienced a wide range of emotions- happy, blessed, grateful, and guilt.  Thinking, why do I get a chance to live and my donor didn't.  Sign up and let's continue this discussion via zoom- no faces, just a name and your avatar if you like...